First and foremost,this entry is specifically for Fida. .


so i guess the rest need not read this aight. .but if you insist,carry on. .this is a public blog anw. .heh,ok. .im beating around the bush already. .


the bitter truth has descended upon me. .what i dreaded finally came true - yesterday. .i reckon it would have been better if you had told me that earlier but nevertheless,i thank you for the effort taken on your part..

yes,indeed it was a very bitter pill to swallow but i had expected this before and therefore,i am able to take it in my stride. .for the first few moments,everything seemed to be crashing down on me. .n yep,it was usual for me to start listening to slow/love songs once again. .hahah. .but soon after,i realise that it was useless for me to brood over this.

i had told someone that should my feelings for you fade away,let it be - naturally. .so from last night up till now,i still think of you every now and then. .heh. .i guess it comes with time. .

but funny how before i received that message from you,i actually dreamt of you. .of course i had loads of dreams about you before this but this one was a lil bit different. .i dreamt that i met up with all your girl friends in the school hall. .but the hall seemed rather run down. .athirah asked me to buy her a drink at the nearby 7-11 store,in the school [mimpi lau da mepek,mepek abis]. .so after doing that,i went back to the hall and shook hands with all of them as i wanted to leave. .then i saw you. .and everything else changed. .from ear-to-ear smiles to a somewhat a forced smile. .im not sure why but everything between you and me seemed awkward. .


and then i made my way home. .hrm. .is there a hidden message behind that?i don't know. .but what i know is that i do not want that to happen. .coz i hope from all these occurrences lately,we are able to understand each other better and thus,be better friends. .=)

anyway Fida,i hope you and him [tho i kinda have a rough idea who he is] will be happy together. .heh. .you might not be in love now,but hey. .you never know right. .time will tell. .

i guess that is all i can say to you now. .like on the card i gave to you on Vdae,thank you for being the companion that i've always enjoyed being with. .

and may you be blessed with love and happiness always. .This is dedicated to a special friend of mine,Fida. . .


chey,step ane peh tribute je. . .ahahahha`


k lar,tis is all for now. .


so long,

=))


[p/s: from your most recent entry,i'd like to comment a lil. .JANGAN SLACK2/MALAS2 LAR..BLJ BTUL2. .PLJRN IS A LIFELONG COMMITMENT AND ACHIEVEMENT. .hehe. .]

k bubbye